It's been so long that I didn't have the time to write down what was inside of me. I've hidden all of it, but right now it has to get out. Maybe it's this new year that got me feeling this way. Because,every year , I admit that everything changes. It's crazy how you start with some people you think you're going to end up with at the end of the year, but you just finnish it with different people. Is it that hard to last for a year? Or less ...
Is it hard to be honest, to be kind, and not hurt people ? Is it harsh to be true and to say what you've got to say ?
I don't think it is , but obviously, it's the contrary .
I never thought I could reach a level of care that would be that less. Never, ever .
I used to always be the one to care about everybody, and end up forgetting my own good.
I used to never say what I'd like because I thought people would leave what they want aside and come with me.
I used to be stupid, clearly . Because going back in time, I just realize that no one deserves to be treated better than what they deserve .
I just got tired of it, because it didn't lead me anywhere. It's just hurt me, and laid me down.
Right now, I understand it all, and I seriously couldn't care less what people think,and what people want , because they'd never do the same for me .
It's crazy how bad people can change you . Sometimes I don't even recognize myself .
But you know what ?
So what ?